one week holiday left..

my 3 weeks holiday left one week now but i haven go out with friends yet as well as my sushi, no sushi for me yet.T.T i hope their exam will over as soon as possible and go out to shopping or at least go sing k or else my holiday will end up with nothing!! i dont want my holiday to be like that, full with hope but finally disappointed with it. anyway, if really happen, i cant do anything on it.
by the way, i haven by anything needed for me before i go back hostel, however, my parents bought some. but then, i wanna go to buy my self because i still have so much things needed.

i learned to park the car just now and i sent my sister to school.*happy* i learned car parking because i lacking of the skill.

have to go now, my brother wanna use the internet connection now.

the day you went away - M2m

VERSE 1
Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

PRE CHORUS 1
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do you know I really really do

CHORUS
Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

VERSE 2
I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

PRE-CHORUS 2
And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

CHORUS
The day you went away
The day you went away

PRE-CHORUS 1
CHORUS

BRIDGE
Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

The day you went away
The day you went away

p/s: i found out this song even i heard last year..XD anyway, its nice^^

M2M - The day you went away
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my dad gave it to me just now.. quite useful...XD

那些迟来的照片，
是他们，
永恒的回忆。。
却也是我
永恒的遗憾。。。

picture taken by me

like this pic...

purple blue flower.. nice^^

reply for my friend, sheau tian^^

first of all, i would like to thank to her for always supporting and advicing me, and giving suggestion to me. thank you very much for everything, glad to be having her as my friend.

herm, i always think about nonsense, it sometime will just come out from my mind in a sudden. so the only way is write it out so that i can release my unhappiness because it seems like telling it to someone even though its not by mouth.XD thanks for your willingness to chat with me, talk to me and listen to my heart voice. maybe, next time i will share to you, u can also share to me too^^.

yea, my life isnt that meaningless, however, maybe due to my complicated thinking, i sometime will think about it but then it just for awhile. haha, thanks for praising me for that. well, i am not having very good and great imagination, but maybe due to my interest on it, i wish to do my best and try it out eventhough i am not taking that course.

141th post, quite unbelievable for me as i started to blog in march 2008 and it was recommended by you^^ thank you very much. you showed me the way for me to write out what i wanna talk to because i seldom say it out others.

no, there was PTS too, haha. 4 important exam i have past through, glad.

my english quite bad, so i am trying to improve it. anyway, even though sometime i learned, but i dont really know how to apply on it.

haha, ya, i will try to believe my self^^

is ok for leaving comments for me, i should thank to you. i welcome you always to leave comments for me^^

my 141th post.. with nothing special.. haha

my 141th post...
*thinking n confirming*
yea, its 141th.XD
nothing speacial about it, its just suddenly come out from my mind, i guess is due to my boringness now. i guess ;D scolded by my mama just now because i disrupted my siblings while they are studying. yea, i m disrupting-.-'' swt. whatever. *wink*
anyway, i learned to drive this afternoon teached by my dad even though i passed my driving test and got my lisence long long time ago even it still 'P' =P
anyway, i didnt give any extra money to pass the test okeyyyy, the reason is i still lacking of skill when driving along the hill if i stopped on it. the clutch and the petrol, headache..XD
so the only way is keep on practicing so that i wont face this kind of problem next time when i drive alone, i can imagine the scene.. scary...
by the way, i learned to drive yesterday too, i think is yesterday, or maybe on monday. oh my god, that time when i was driving, the car keep on 'mati engine', that time, i was sweating. T.T
and one more thing, my dad, uhh, his respon make me feel scare n did badly in driving the car.
finally i decided to practice not under his sight, i drove to one place that he cant see me and i tried there and yea, i did it better. *relieve*
one more thing, this frighten me!! u know what, when i was practicing, there was drain. when i practicing, the car reversed because i didnt use the handbrake to control, unfortunately, i reversed n it reached the drain and i was shocked!! i was worrying if the tyre go into the drain, how am i going to drive it out while i was still practicing and having no experience. uhh, scary. so after i tried to relax myself, i had tried to do my best and ya, i drove the car away!!! *relieve* thk god for helping me.
eventually, i went back home after that and went to my room immediately and i realised that my leg was shivering. i think i was frighten and i cried.XD but then it was just for not more than 1 minute and i end up starring on the wall.
oh, now i know the reason why i was so gloomy yesterday. its because of this-.-'' hahaha.. swt
and yea, it happened yesterday..
today, everything went better, and i think i have learned the technique. thk god..
hope everything will be fine^^

suddenly i have so much things to tell, but i dont know who can i tell.
feel so depress and down. i got so much things to tell, but now i dont know what to tell.
wish to go out but i dont know where to go, wish to chat but dont have the willing to, so, what should i do now? at this moment, i feel that my life is so meaningless. i dont know how to blog in english now after i saw others' english standard. argh!!!!!! i dont know what should i do.

吃错药了啦！！

说不要写部落格，
突然间就冒出三篇。。
我想是神劲错乱吧。。
呵呵。。
白痴-.-
不过我可是用华语写的。。
哈哈哈。。
我想我真的吃错药了。。
算了吧，
不正常，
也没什么大不了。。-.-'''

一时之间的胡思乱想。。。。。。

一时之间，
我的情绪，
堕落到极点。。
就那么无端端。。
头脑想的，
不懂为什么。。
突然间感觉到，
发呆，
原来是那么好的。。
一个人，
静静的，
望着夜空，
就算望着一颗植物都好。。
就这样，凝视着它们。。
头脑什么都不想，
空空的。。
暂时性的把所有烦恼，
抛开。。
心情舒畅极了。。
不过，
发呆，
就只有短短几秒钟，
脑筋一开始动，
什么东西都涌上来了，
尤其是那些伤心的，
乱想的。。
一时之间，
发觉到自己，
根本没人理，
有很多事情，
开心的、
伤心的、
感觉上，
都不能与他们分享。。
当事情一过，
什么，都不见了。。
一了了之。。
虽然我知道，
还是有其他人，
只不过，
我的心，
有时却没有哪么的愿意。。
呵呵。。
算了吧。。
生活，
还是得过下去。。
一时之间的低落大不了。。
世间上还有许许多多更可怜的。。
而且，
为自己感到悲伤，
得不到什么，
又何苦呢？？

机会，
一旦错失了，
就算你怎么追，
都追不回。。

爱情，
一旦错过了，
就算你怎么挽回，
都会是白费的。。

除非上帝，
还想再给你多一次机会。。

期待

每一天的生活中，

都充满了很多的期待。。。

期待幸运之神的降临，

为生活，增添色彩。。。

然而，

得到的，

不是希望，

更不是惊喜。。

得到的，

都只会是更多的，

期待。。。

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now i do realise that my english damn poor after viewing some blogs. aikz. the standard of their english compare to mine, can be differentiated using the sky and the land, shame. this make feel scare to blog again. huh.. what to do, what i wana blog all forgotten.-.-

swt..
suddenly think of this..
kakaka..
quite suitable for me...

people "home sick", i home "sick".... XD

cz i always sick when i go back my home maaaaaaaa... swt

edited by me^^

cherish n appreciate^^

o m g.....
sienz...
i think i got problem alrd... shouting around wit sis, finally feel like damn damn tired.... usually i m not like tat... maybe is affected by the problem of the stomach....
aikz..
i oso dono wat happen la..
anyway, jz now went to the indian neighbour open house.. i don wan to go cz i scare the food will affect my stomach.. however, my mum n sis still ask me to go.. huh... so i hv to go... finally i feel uncomfortable again... n having quite a bad mood now.. swt...
watever la..
jz feel so tired....
btw, even my bro online, but due to the room upstairs quite hot, so i come down n online... i took the streamyx cable n online n don care even my bro yi yi ngam ngam...
he always make ppl unhappy.. so, jz forget bout it.. haha...

well, yest, b4 i sleep, i always think bout death... think if i die suddenly, can i leave all the things n go away... can i jz forget bout everything surrounding me n jz go away....
no.. i cnt.. lolz.. cz, i wanna settle all my things... lolz.. my pc, got password.. kakaka.. so everything bout me will be stored in my pc.. if i din give anyone my pc password, thy can open a?? lolz... how bout my pc, will thy let others to use.. aduiii... i gila one.. lolz..
anyway, i also wanna about my fren n family... i wanna noe thy will sad for me or wat.. swt... jz forget it la.. kakaka.. nonsense thinking.. n one more, my blog... i wanna say goodbye to others too ma... n i wanna see the comment... aikz.. i getting crazy n crazy.. anyway, this is me lo.... cnt do anything wat... kan kan kan?? watever laa.. n still got one more things.. hermm.. lalala.. lelele.. lilili... lololo.. lululu.. -.-.. lolz.. jz total up, i cnt leave this world now loo.. i still got a lot things to do.. swt... but if really hv to leave, i oso can do nth.. jz hope everything wil be fine, tats enough...
anyway, i feel weird y suddenly i will think bout this, is it becz i really hav to go soon?? or hinting me on smt... well, its maybe jz wan me to appreciate everything around me.... cherish every moment..

so, yea... we should always appreciate n cherish everything happening around us...
wish u a happy day^^

捉迷藏，
有时候，

根本不好玩。。。

compete to online.. swt-.-

lolz..
finally, i online.. swt... i yest whole day din online.. suffering..
so, today i observed n notice tat no ppl online, so i quickly bring down my laptop n online..
lolz..
seems like so diff to online.. swt..
anyway, its really difficult for me to online if in my situation..
all my siblings now how to use pc n online.. need to competeT.T
somemore thy getting holiday now..
btw, i glad tat my school holiday seldom crash wit their school holiday, so tat i everytime come back don need to compete wit thm.. jz sometime i hav to do so..
one week holiday past..... 2 weeks more..
i buy nth lei... aikz... staying at home, seldom go out.. n don say go out shopping laaa..
all my frens so bz exam....
no sushi for me too..
n for my condition now, i cnt simply eat, so tat my stomach will recover fully....
everytime i holiday sure will sick.. sigh*
whatever laa...
holiday, is time for me to relax...
btw, the results i think will come out next week...... sigh*

pic i edited yesterday.....

lolz.. pic again... anyway, this pic is taken by me.. the venue is outside my house de.... i noticed the sky was so nice... especially the layer of the sky.. i tot wanna use camera to take this pic, however, out of battery.. so cnt be usedT.T

anyway, i used my own hp to take this pic.. so the pic not really nice.. n thn, i edited it.. jz for fun.. haha.. but looks nice oso.. hope u all like it..

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this is the original pic.... can u see the layer of sky... nice^^

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purple sky...^^ the pic the colour looks artistic... lolz

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this pic not really being edited.. got my own reason, but lazy to sayXD sorry...
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this one i set it as my pc wallpaper.. lolz..

25 oct

Aikz..
Today I cnt online, so I jz on pc in my room…
Without internet connection… miserable…
This is all ncz my sibling ‘queuing’ to on pcT.T
Okeeeyyy..
First, is my younger bro.. he online in the afternoon…
Follow by my youngest bro… he online in the evening…
Now… is my sisT.T
She online at night……….. o m g….. I cnt online for whole dayyyyy….
Aduiiii…. Sobz…
So the onli way to get rid of my boringness without online is, watch drama tat I hav downloaded loooorrr…

Anyway, I feel tat my stomach got smt wrong…..
I tot it will be getting better… yea, its getting well, but, its make me feel like my stomach jz has been operated… not really pain, but, when i touched it, it feel pain… when sleeping, sleep aside, it will pain too.. its like, erm…. The intestine getting decompose… swt… I cnt even walk faster or jump n cnt even bow down my body… if I do tat, it will feel pain….
Aikz.. wat happen to me aa??
Now the sick I get getting weird n weird…
I think, no, its for sure, its due to my sleeping habit….T.T
Nowadays, I usually sleep at 3, 4 am.. n I got used to it.. after tat woke up at btwn 11am and 12pm..
I tried to sleep early, but I cnt… I will face insomnia if I sleep earlier.. I envy wit those can sleep if thy wanna sleep or sometime thy can fall asleep when studying.. for me, its impossible… I asked my mum y thy can sleep jz like tat… she said, ‘thy din think anything thn straight away can sleep lorr…’.
Haiyooo… din think anything? Possible?? Maybe, yes.. but for me, my brain operate 24 hours… lalala..XD
Even b4 sleep, I still can think whatever it comes out from my mind… even sometime I listen to music when I face insomnia, it din work too.. cz if listen music, sure will sing maaa, n the ears sure will listen to the music ma… like this how to sleep a?? swt..
So the best way is….. I hav no idea with it^^” …
Anyway, I will try my best laa…

Btw, if lacking of sleep or the sleeping time table out of the track, it will bring us a very very serious disadvantages….
U noe wat, for the normal sleeping time, the expelling of the toxic from the body will operate smoothly.. n this will bring us healthy body.. n vice versa…….
so the toxic will store in our body n it cnt be expelled.. the organ in the body cnt operate in usual.. after tat, a lot of diseases will attack our body… thn we will get sick.T.T
anyway, my dad gave me a printed article jz now… I saw it n it mentioned bout the unusual sleeping habits… it will bring DeAtH too.. o m g…
so scary… die aaa… it mentioned, a human especially adolescent or young adulthood, should be having 8-hours-sleep everyday…
so, beware all those that having wrong sleeping habit… (included me..T.T)
A good sleeping habit will bring us a healthy body..
Stay healthy always !!
N again, hope I get well soon.. lolz..

date created : 25 oct, 11.37pm XD

b4 n after....

hihi..
blog again.... swt
i tot i might less bogging during this break, but thn, its not.. kakaka...
maybe quite boring at home so the best way is online n blog..
so first of all, wanna inform tat my stomach ache i think is getting well.....
haha...


anyway, i hav learned smt very nice yesterday night....
its very very nice....
so happy cz finally i manage to do it..
its about photo editing..
for those doesnt like it, sorry for tat...

okeyy.. now i will show the pic b4 n after^^

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after... ^^ colourful iris.... nice...!! believe it?? i did it my self yesterday midnight.. lolz..

jz went back from clinic.. lolz..
but i still online^^ even stomach pain....
aikz... once i got holiday, i sure will get sick.... now is stomach ache... T.T
hav to eat medicine T.T....
dono wat happen to my tounge, everything i ate it tasted bitter... i hate it!!!

anyway, hope u guys will stay healthy always.. ^^
n wish all those suffer from any sickness take care n get well soon..
happy exam n happy holiday yaa...

anyway, jz now in the afternoon i went to renew my IC right?? i was told not to hide my eyes brown using the hair lerr while the ear is optional.. weird lei...

stomach ache...T.T

o m g..
i dono suddenly stomach ache... T.T
since yest i can feel the pain but jz not really serious so i din care bout it so much...
how i noe when i woke up this morning, its getting painful... aikz...
my dad said is gastric.. aduiii.. gastric??? don la.. very teruk one laaa...
he said, u last time not suffer from gastric meh?? lolz.. yea yea.. but it will leave negative effect on me meh???
so i ate my breakfast + lunch.. (2 in 1..T.T)
after tat drunk hot milo... cz wat i learned b4, human stomach prefer hot thn cold.. right??
so after tat, my mum back, i think my dad told her bout tat, so she asked me, n tell me, am i eat smt wrong?? is it bcz of the nasi lemak i ate yest, cz too spicy.. i hav no idea but i think it might be the reason....
anyway, i ate medicine...
hope can get well soon........

i hav to go...
go to register for new IC...
cz i m 18.... lolz..

yam cha.........

lolz..
jz now went to yam cha wit frens.. 10 pm got... swt...
act my parents don let me go one.. but finally thy came n i say bye bye lo....
anyway, i jz came back.. lolz..
btw, i go wit 2 guys... swt... first time go yam cha anyway..
i jz drink lime wit plum while two of thm eat kuew tiao goreng n tim sum.. swt..
one of thm said thy jz finish eat.. still eat so much.. some more drink so much... *pengsan..
anyway, i always kena bully by themT.T
so cham..
but ok lo.. cz boring ma stay at home during the trimester break..
but act thy planned to go cheras, the kang le there.. got pasar malam...
they said the pasar malam is the longest pasar malam in malaysia wor..
never see b4... hope to go there someday.. n thy said the shirt there cheap wor.. lolz..

if got chance i wan go!!^^

讨厌。。

一个人，
是不会随便去讨厌人的。。
讨厌一个人，
是需要理由的。。
所以，
不要一直说人家讨厌你。。
讨厌人家，
被人家讨厌，
都很不好受。。

picture i searched yesterday... ^^

okeyyy....

after bla bla-ing...now, i would like to share some nice pic i searched yesterday.. jz some of it..i hope u like thm.. may comment on thm.. kakaz..

even i scare of injection, but i still like the colour of the liquid.. isnt thy look nice??? rainbow colour...^^

this looks sour.. hahaha.. especially when u looking at the lemon in biggest size.. sour! XD

this purple flower... looks harmony n comfortable...but i dono wat flower is this.. lolz..

spectrum of blue colour.. matching wit the black colour.. awesome..^^

this music note necklace looks so nice... shinning^^ i got one from my ex school band but it doesnt looks like this... its the other music note.. nice oso... haha.. got purple^^

swt... noisy!!!!

arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fi li fa la fi li fa la!!!!!!!
noisy~!!!!!!
huh...
*pengsan....
so noisy a....
my bro a.....
ask this ask tat.... nonsense!!!! i say no still ask, kacau this kacau tat...
so many ques..
i doesnt mean tat asking ques is very bad.... but thn, u noe, so noisy a~!!!! continuos.... can u imagine.... ask ques alrd, thn say 'har?? har??'-.-
o m g... beh tahan!!!
say wat, bertaruh money, if bertaruh more, u will get more money......
hei.. plz la.. u got so lucky everytime win de a??? even win oso u need to use so much money onli u get back the money....
beh dong...
after tat ask the loan from government.... swt...
now lei, my dad open the dvd... the volume so loud.. aikz... sudah la..
3 weeks...
after 3 weeks, i wil go back hostel laaa... continue my life wit less noise... continue to become a zai nv.... sit in front pc wholde day n fill my life wit buziness in study.... good... no nonsense for me to think , no noisiness.. good!!!! swt...

世界上有很多东西都是美好的，
只在乎你有没有
认真,耐心的去寻找..

boringness come to me alrd..T.T

aikz.....
stay at home for 2 days more..
the boringness come to me lorrr...
sienz...
whole day stay at home, din go out wit frens cz frens all exam'ing..
if i stay in hostel, i can download movie to watch n dump my self in front of the pc without any guiltiness..
now i cnt always online cz i scare my parents will scold me cz always on pc n waste electric..
cz if in hostel, i will online whole day cz the bill is included in our fee..XD
sien lo.........
cnt learn car oso cz i scare parents bz..... aiyooooo..
how aaaa....
sobz..

道歉？！？

一个人无论有没有做错，
如果令人家不高兴，
就应该道歉。。
这样，
会让自己，
别人都好过些。。
不要做错了，
当作不是一回事，
还骂人。。
也许，我也有错吧，
不过，拜托，
想一下自己有对不起人家吗，
不要无缘无故又来骂人。。
人家一对你不好就乱乱骂人。。
最不喜欢人这样。。
呼。。
随便你怎么想，
也许我是小气的，
不过，凡事都要替人着想。。
发觉不对劲就想一下自己有错吗。。
不要随便破口乱吗，
损坏形象。。
唉。。
算了。。
胡言乱语一场。。
事情过了就算了。。
计较太多不好的也是自己。。
呵呵。。
如我做错了什么对不起大家的事，
我在此向大家说声抱歉。。

at home ^ ^"

i m now at home loorr..
i reached home yest at bout 6 smt.. i think soo.. lolz..
initially, i lazy to blog.. but, since nth to do.. so i blog lo... kakakaz..
anyway, my home pc's keyboard can be said, nice, n oso not nice-.-.. lolz...
nice its becz nice to type cz faster n looks can tahan n wont rosak..
not nice is bcz easy for me to type wrongly.... swt
n yea, i used my home pc chat wit my frens, o m g... so many emocations... swt...
if i use my laptop, no emocations.. now suddenly so many appeared.. i oso cnt get used to it...
the reason i don wan to use laptop cz my laptop in my room, lazy to take it downstairs.. my laziness.. lolz..

aikz..
go back home, my life full wit noisiness again..
my mama scold my bro...
my bro talk wit my bro or play togthr, or bully one another...
n my sis, always kacau me.... wan see movie tat i downloaded..
lolz.. swt..
cnt fully adapt the condition..
but anyway, i can feel tat my mama like sayng me ler.. lalala.. maybe miss me lo.. lolz.. XD
but thy always sayang de la.. cz their children ma.. kan???

btw, i will be having 3 weeks of holiday..
so long lei.. this is the first time i feel the holiday was so long.. scare will be a lot boringness..
but during primary n secondary school time, 2 months ler... but anyway, i worked during tat time, so not really boring... 3 weeks holiday, thinking to find some jobs.. but 3 weeks.. got work for me to do meh?? somemore i cnt go kl there work cz quite far n go there need money, mahal.. lolz..
my parents mostly wont let me go dee.. aikz... how how how??
ask my fren go out?? aiyoo.. most of thm start to exam or started their exam.. but i wil still kcau one... lolz.. so bad*
i feel like going to cheras selatan.. kakaz.. cz there got jusco, in jusco got sushi... quite a time for me din eat sushi.. i dono since when i like to makan sushi.. lolz.. but most of the time after i ate sushi, i will sick or feel uncomfortable, but i still will eat.. swt..
other thn tat, i can go celebrate my frens belated bday maaa...
cz last time when their bday all school time.. so cnt celebrate for thm.. but need to see how first, see others.. lolz... all my mind full wit the plan to go out nia.. kakakaz..

i wan go out!! i wan go out!!! XD..
i scare of boringness~~

packing looo..

going to pack my stuff now!!^^
tot going back tomolo but, since my frens all went back, so boring stay here..
so, go back lo...
my mama papa so miss me, sure go back lo...
lolz..
i tot wanna rest for awhile but my mama said, aiyooo, go back onli rest la, i later follow come here help u pack...XD wakakaka..... good ler.. lolz..

so i might less blogging for these 3 weeks holiday!!!
trimester break..
enjoy yaa..
i hav downloaded quite a lot drama, so tat i can watch at home^^
kakakaz...
wanna play dota but dono where to download...
in cybertraker there seems no..
aikz..
i m going to be addicted...
luckily my fren din let me copy the file yet..

go back go back.....^^

exam finish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! happy, for temporary... lolz..

o m g!!!!!
finish exam...
get away temporary from the stress n pressure life..
lolz.. jz temporary, don forget tat...
aikz...
physics exam past, but i feel like i will be taking supplementary paper coming soon....T.T
this is bcz i dono how to do.. cz i do last min work n the most important one is i din pay attention during the class..
regreting.. but useless.. kakaz..
so wat i gonna do is jz wait for the result to come out!!!!
full wit excited n scariness.... scare i will fail n need to take supplementary paper..
can u imagine the feeling u jz exam, but u still hav to take the exam again!!!! for the same subj, same things...
n one more, need to study during the holiday while others r enjoying.... T.T
aikz...
this make me so gloomy...

after exam, i saw the ppl surrounding, so so so happy...
n yea, noisy, bcz this is the last paper for this trimester..
but i cnt too happy.. kakaz...
cz first of all my fren sit so far from me...
difficult to talk to thm...
my neighbour mostly i tak kenal..
those sit behind n infront me even is my classmate, but u noe la, guy wor.. somemore i tak kenal punya.. so i wont so kepo go n talk to thm de la..
so i end up sit in my place..
looking around n see ppl smiling n laughing around....
but of course, i used to it alrd.. jz sometime i still don wan to hav such feel...
weird ppl, tats y....

anyway, i do promised my self not to on my pc for 2 days, n yea, i did it!!!!
congratulation to my selfXD
so now i m using my lovely pc... kakakaz....

huh..
feel so tired now.... due to the lacking of sleep, argh.... got a bit sleepy..
no money now but i hungry...
thinking to go bank to take money but there was so many ppl..
thinking to go back today but i see my roomate so pity so i go back tomolo..
decided to go beach on sunday but finally lazy to go.. the same go to the shopping things..
sorry ya jac........ i finally chg my decision, make u need to chg urs too... sorry for tat....
aikz.. wat happen to me..
decided smt but finally chged..
argh...
abnormal i think....
complicated feeling...
lolz....
tired tired!!!

anyway,
i will all of u,
happy finish exam!!!!
n
HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!!
(jz for those will be having holiday now especially for mmu students.. kakaz..)

what-so-ever...

dying!!!!

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
我要崩溃了啊！！！！！！！！！
huh..
even though jz finish exam..
english exam..
but the essay!!!
arghh...
i dono y i did the wrong format...
i did wrong format!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!!!!!?!??!?!?
y i so stupid..
huh...
so miserable..
i tot i can relax awhile after english exam, how i noe this will happen...
arghh...
stress...............
dying...............

hei se mao yi- jay chou...

i listen to old song.. swt... but nice ler.. sad enough.... XD

meaning of my name^^ kakaka

What Yonghooikhim Means

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

stomach abnormal + others............

written at 8pm smt,

o m g!!
wat happen to me today???
lolz..
yest sleep at 4am smt..
thn today this morning woke up at 9...
to k books...
aikz.. @.@
i drunk milo..
n eat some jacob's cereals biscuits, berapa keping..
when time to exam go exam..
tak makan ape ape pon..
lolz..
until jz now,
after exam,
i went to canteen to buy drinks..
soya bean's drink.. lolz.. i dono y now i like to drink.... last time i always ngam cham when asked
to drink..XD
so so, until now,
i stil haven hungry..
jz a LiTtLe bit of hungry..
lolz..
gila alrd i think..
after back from exam..
i dumb my self in my room..
in front of pc..
forget how long....-.-
yea yea..
for me, sit in front the pc..
by clicking n clicking n typing....
i will forget the time..
lol..

jz written.... kakaz

jz now i went to buy dinner...
o m g..
so long i hav to wait..
until my perut bising for so long..
when i eating,
all the gas come out from stomach..
bcz i so long no makan..
o m g..
tat time..
so uncomfortable..
even now..
lolz..
but hopefully no gastric laa..

anyway,
jz now after bought the food,
go back room,
no internet connection..
sobz..
for so long..
o m g..
suddenly feel like..
staying in the hostel,
one day without internet connection..
how i will become???
die a??
swt..
luckily,
the internet is back..
tats y i can post my blog...
lolz...

aikz..
so late now..
almost 12...
wed exam..
again..
sat one more..
help me aaaa.........!!

i m hopeless nowww...

arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dying....
my pre calculus..
no hope alrd..
phy..
i dono think so i got even a little bit hope.. T.T
how???
my exam!!!!!
result will be very bad..
arghhhh
how??????
huh..
hopeless..
next time...
next time cnt study last min..
plz..
no more last min..
n need more practical..
even i knew tat...
aikz....
but the time table oso got its fault..
suppose to exam in the morning..
wake up in the morning go to exam..
the best way..
aikz..
today, exam in the afternoon..
make me tot got time to study..
k book until so late..
walk to exam hall still study..
aikz..
after tat.
i headache.....T.T
no time to let my brain relax..
thn straight away go to exam..
my brain BLANK!!!!!!
at tat moment.. i noe smt bad will happen..
argh..
after i saw the ques paper..
speechless..
i jz do wat i can...
u noe wat,
wat i hav studied..
all forgotten..
forgotten!!!!!
o m g.....
wat happen to me...
tat time..
no time for me to cry or complain..
miserable..
argh...
anyway,
now i can show tat i m not clever....
n not lucky anymore..
happy???
yea..
i m not..
i m not..
uhhhh...
phy paper coming...
this sat....
good..
i dono wat to do..
without practice...
o m g!!!!
how laaa..
aikz...
sorry papa mama,
my result getting worse n worse..
i m now hopeless...
but i cnt even complain to anyone..
nvm laaaa...

后悔。。来不及了！！！

突然之间，
我发觉，
我似乎选错科系了。。。
感觉上，
我不应该读工程系，
我应该选设计系。。。
在今天我设计朋友的电子生日卡时，
我发觉，
我很愿意地把所有精神都专注在设计上，
根本没有任何埋怨，不满。。
我居然可以愿意把它做完，
不像我现在工程系，
有一千个不愿意去做功课，
一万个不愿意去读书。。。
唉。。
感觉上，
我真的选错了，
怎么办啊？？？
不过，
事实告诉我，没有用了啦！！。。
当初还不是自己将要换科，
连累到我的爸爸忙这忙那，
帮我办转科手续，
看了都很内疚。。
哎哟，
算了吧，
就像我所说的，
得服从命运，
唉。。
后悔后悔！！！
-.- 不可以后悔了啦。。
早知如此，何必当初。。
后悔来不及了。。
呵呵呵。。
现在最重要的就是，
读书！！
考试！！
唉。。。

flowers..

mosaic of flowers..

lolz..

命运。。XD

命运，
虽然说是可以改变的，
但是，
在你改变命运之前，
你还是得被命运操控。。
你还是得听从命运的使令。。。

insomnia!!!

oh my god!!!!!!!
insomnia!!!!
ish!!!
hate!!!!
u make me so miserable!!!!
uhh..
i cnt sleep yest for alomost the whole night becz of insomnia..
lolz..
dono y suddenly bcome like tat.. -.-
i wanna sleep at 2,
unfortunately,
at 5..
i still awake..
argh!!!
gila punya..
so miserable..
wan cry but cnt cry..
uhh..
so i think i sleep not more thn 1 hour..
the reason i feel so miserable is bcz..
today got exam!!!!
if i don hav enough sleep,
i hav the big probablity will be having headache the next day...
but luckily, thk god,
i din..
jz i cnt think much n shake my head..-.-''
lolz....
thk god...
kakaz..
maybe, is bcz my timetable for me to sleep changed,
so if wan me to sleep earlier i might face insomnia..
aikz..
teruk....
however,
i hope it wont happen to me again aaa..
aiyooo..
can u imagine,
u trying to sleep but u cnt even sleep....
its so so so suferring....
anyway,
i did my human development exam today..
oh god..
left 3 subj..
lolz..
2 of it need me to work very hard on it..
aikz..
but due to my laziness,
i scare i will do last minute work, again...
i scare i will fail..
really.. T.T

i cnt study!!!! argh!!

uhhh...
i tot wanna study at night..
but due to some reasons,
i cnt study!!!
argh!!!
help me!!!
i donwan to use onli one day to rush all the chapters....
i don wan!!!!!
uhh..
hope tomolo manage to study...
n manage to absorb wat i studied...
human development.. a very theory type subj... the type of subj i don like to study....
aikz...

~习惯~

你一旦习惯了它，
习惯了它的存在，
有一天，
你一定会因为它而不习惯，
因为它而，
不安。。。
失控。。。

smart card = id card.. lala^^
pai se lo.. face cnt be showed due to the weirdness n uglyness.. @.@

relieved + a bit gilaaa...@.@

o m g!!!!
so happy..
wakakaz..
happy since the moment i finish the question in exam hall..
lolz..
happy tat one subj passed..
yea yea..@.@
but.. still got 4 subj coming soon..
aiyooo..
stress again..T.T
the day after tomolo, human development exam....
aiyoooo..
need to memorise again..
i don like to memorise laaa...
aikz..
7 chaps..
can i manage to finish thm on time???
dono.. aikz..
my fren finished study...
i haven start it, and not even open the book n seeT.T
wat a big contrast..
huh..
nvm laaa..
again, try the best lo...
don be lazy is the main point....@.@
my laziness..
plz get away from me!!!!!!

btw, now quite tired...
kakaz..
cz faced insomnia yest...
wanna sleep at 2.30 but at 4 still awake..
thn today wake up at 7 smt..
T.T
maybe my body cnt adapt the condition cz recently i sleep quite late..
always sleep at 4 0r 5.. @.@
hope i wont be too tired later....

oh ya!
one more things..
stupid things..
lolz..
jz now after exam i went to IPS to take smart card...
i went there, was told to take photo@.@
i wore the shirt i wear since i standard 6..
lolz..
the collar there looks weird...
so malang..
where tat shirt go take photo..
somemore i go bow down a bit my head.. oh my god!!!!
the pic taken was damn damn damn weird..
plus my ugliness..
oh!!!!! god!!!! *pengsan..
nvm laa..
take it as a compensate for doing smt wrong previously if any... T.T
sudah!!! ....
swt..

so i don wan to show my fren n block the pic when the card is being scanned..
mana tahu tat cunning staff..
uhh...
maybe tertarik by my fren's nice appearance..
he helped her..
took back the smart card.. (cz when my fren's smart card after being scanned, she can take it straight away..)i tot he wan to do wat, thn he gave to my fren!!!! walao!!!! *pengsan...
but... i oso geng laa.. kakakaz..
i rampas at the moment he gave her... lalala..^^ so she not even see it.. kakaz...
but finally i showed her lo... =p
tats all for the stupid gila things....
aiyooo.. i wan to take photo again n do the new smart card laaaa.. T.T swt.. i don hav so much money to do it anyway.. lolz.. bai chi meh....@.@

so so so...
wat to do??
nth lo..
onli if i lost the smart card..
don wan ler.. xD