depress mode

In a sudden, me myself turned to be so depress... the heart is really pain now.. aikzz.. thought about the course i am taking and what i actually interested on, i dono what to say.. it started to get painful and it make me feel like crying and i dropped some tears.. haha.. some.. anyway, it maybe helped, but only the 1% out of 100%.. i dono how to let goo this feeling.. aikzz.. today, or, the correct one is yesterday, i was acting so weird, and my emotion changed from getting to hate ppl to normal and turned to abnormal.. and now, the depress mode.. i regretting but what to do, procedures needed in changing course and of course, finance.. wth.. what happen to me..! hopefully i will get to cool down soon and continue to hide the regretful back to my heart, in the deepest heart.. bla~ maybe it got its freedom from the deepest place thats why its make my heart to be so painful.. k.. tats all..

lonely.... T.T

today the last class is at 4pm... less than half attended the class because of the holiday for tomorrow, christmas holiday... and will be 5 day holiday after today.. of course, most of them will go back home to celebrate..

so, my friend skept the class too, and i still go for class.. but did nothing in the class.. bla~~ useless.. so now, after class, i wondering where and what should i eat.. quite regret for declining my friends' invitation to go out eat or countdown for christmas.. T.T regreting.. so now, left me alone in my room.. my mum did asked me to go back but i feel like not going back today, and finally she said, she need to fetch my brother later so finally she not coming.. herm, quite sad for being like this now, boring, no people to chat, cannot go out... huhh... my fault, and i can blame no one indeed..

i scare i will think nonsense and make me unstable again, i know recently i still in a not really stable condition.. anyway, just forget it.. now i really don't know what to eat, don't feel like wasting money, and don't feel like eat so much.. want to eat mix rice but there are no vegetables there for non vege stall.. T.T lazy to order those need to wait for sometime, because i don't like my self to be looks like a stupid idiot even though i am..

christmas coming and i am doing nothing.. yea, i know i never celebrate christmas before, as well as last year, i wish i can, yet, i cant.. everytime, there sure will be something to disturb and so, i can do nothing for it.. so i guess, this year christmas, i cant celebrate it.. and i have to welcome the christmas in an unhappy condition.. however, i still hope miracle will happen.. miracle, seems to be so impossible to me..

anyway, i do like to wish all of you and hope that all of you can celebrate the Christmas happily, and can get a lot of present^^

MeRrY ChRiStMAs yaaaa...

后悔。。来不及了！！！

突然之间，
我发觉，
我似乎选错科系了。。。
感觉上，
我不应该读工程系，
我应该选设计系。。。
在今天我设计朋友的电子生日卡时，
我发觉，
我很愿意地把所有精神都专注在设计上，
根本没有任何埋怨，不满。。
我居然可以愿意把它做完，
不像我现在工程系，
有一千个不愿意去做功课，
一万个不愿意去读书。。。
唉。。
感觉上，
我真的选错了，
怎么办啊？？？
不过，
事实告诉我，没有用了啦！！。。
当初还不是自己将要换科，
连累到我的爸爸忙这忙那，
帮我办转科手续，
看了都很内疚。。
哎哟，
算了吧，
就像我所说的，
得服从命运，
唉。。
后悔后悔！！！
-.- 不可以后悔了啦。。
早知如此，何必当初。。
后悔来不及了。。
呵呵呵。。
现在最重要的就是，
读书！！
考试！！
唉。。。

shame.. lolz..

o m g!!!!
tomolo exam start!!! T.T
shame to tell tat..
i haven finish prepare..
n i knew tat i wont finish study..
even there was so much time for me previously..
i never used thm fully in study...
aikz..
regreting but i noe i will be still like this for the next time..
i dono y i cant do earlier preparation for the exam..
i hav to do last minute work..
T.T
wat to do..
the laziness...
aikz..
all my fault..
god..
plz take away my laziness..
i wan to feel how is the feeling when fully prepared for the exam..
i never feel it b4..
i wan to be so relax b4 the exam...
aikz..

wat to do now is jz..
try the best to finsih the syllabus..
lolz..
good luck to my self.. @.@

ExAm eXaM ExAm !!! @.@