2nd of august.........

today, i went for gathering organized by my ex classmates..

act theis motive is to celebrate 3 people bday..

included me...

i reached there at about 11..

fetched by see hun...

first..

we went to sing k..

there was bout 11 people went for the gathering...

dono y we hav to seperate into 2 group..

huh..

so we start to sing k..

my room there, initially no people choose the songs..

so,

i jz pick some songs...

no people sing..

wat the song i like,

thy don like..

huh...

so,

i jz keep quiet..

after sometime..

my fren came suddenly wit a cake..

thy wished to surprise us i think..

unfortunately, sorry,

i jz stare at him blurly..

without any surprise..

so, 3 of us, yeong kang, bi qi n me cut the cake..

chocolate moss cake..

nice act...

like..

we took some pic..

thn we start makan food..

after tat onli eat the cake...

anyway,

even got cake..

i still got the feeling of hoping..

haha..

hoping for... - present...

greedy huh...

but...

i m a weird people..

is normal to hav weird thinking n attitude..

so,

i jz hope tat thy will give some surprise...

waiting n waiting..

eventually...

i dissapointed..

my fren told us, he wanna give us bday card,

but, he bought ONE...

funny huh...

so....

my feeling full wit excited gone..

replaced wit a moody feeling....

so, after all, i bcome so quiet n smile gone from my face, too...

my feeling was..

down..

thy decided to watch movie after tat...

act i decided not to watch....

unwilling...

wit moody mood, can i watch movie??

huh..

i feel like wanna scream as loud as possible..

but, i cant...

finally, i went to watch...

the mummy...

my thinking bcome more complicated after went inside the cinema..

n, unfortunately, i lose control...

i cried..

jz for awhile...

no body noticed..

sometime, cry can reduce our sadness..

but, jz some of it..

finally..

the movie finished..

went out wit a more stable mood..

thy decided to buy present for us..

i say no..

thn i went away..

let thm discuss while i went to walk..

finally...

thy din buy la..

but, still ok la.............

haha...

i say this, i m like bluffing my self..

huh..

so, after all, my hope all gone....

i still quiet n forced my self to smile when it is needed..

huh...

i dono y i hav such idiot thinking..

y i m such an abnormal people..

y don i open minded??

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wan to scream, again..

but, i cnt..

all the unwillingness, patientless hiding in my heart..

painful..

- today.....

my patient is extremely limited..................................................................................................

sorry......