went crazy!!!

recently, i skipped a lot of classes, sorry for being that.. but i don really mean to do so... i couldnt wake up at the time and i late, so i skipped.. and today, i m skipping the class now, physics class, its because of my roomate.. aikzz.. i dono wat she did, she initially wana do assignment.. u noe wat, the time i wanna go to sleep she said wanna do assignment.. and so, she done the assignment i think.. at the same time when she doing her assign, she opened the music.. yea, even though she low down the volume, but then, i don think she dono i m tat so call sensitve person, even a soft sound oso i will get uphappy wit it and made me cant sleep.. finally, i asked her to off the music and she did, and i fall asleep for dono how many minutes.. and thn, she off the light but on the bulb beside her table... arrr... i not only sensitive to sound but light too.. -.-.. after tat, she lied on the bed, dono do wat, and then she went to brush her teeth..after she came back, she on the pc again~! and she started to watch drama, for about 2 hours i think.. arrr!! wth!!!!!!! i went crazy tat time but i can do nth... even though i tried to send some msg but i noe its useless... so, until 5 smt, i still AWAKE! i think she off the pc at 6 and i fall asleep and until jz now.. aiihhh... i hate to talk bout sleep if in the condition like this.. arrr.. fine.. time to go..! appmaths class...!

new year celebration.. -.-

what am i suppose to do?? the only things i can say now.. bla~~
anyway, i did not celebrate for new year last night, end up with staying in the room alone.. haha.. when my friends asked me where you went to countdown, first, i reply with '-.-''' haha.. i guess some of you know what's mean.. lolz.. anyway, thanks for chatting with me yesterday yea for those who did.. wahaha~~ and thanks a lot too for those who sent me new year wishes message... anyway, its being a contrast since last year i celebrate new year with a gang of people.. kk.. stop blabling here.. final is coming, study is the most important things to do now.. good luck.. have a nice day too for all..

lonely.... T.T

today the last class is at 4pm... less than half attended the class because of the holiday for tomorrow, christmas holiday... and will be 5 day holiday after today.. of course, most of them will go back home to celebrate..

so, my friend skept the class too, and i still go for class.. but did nothing in the class.. bla~~ useless.. so now, after class, i wondering where and what should i eat.. quite regret for declining my friends' invitation to go out eat or countdown for christmas.. T.T regreting.. so now, left me alone in my room.. my mum did asked me to go back but i feel like not going back today, and finally she said, she need to fetch my brother later so finally she not coming.. herm, quite sad for being like this now, boring, no people to chat, cannot go out... huhh... my fault, and i can blame no one indeed..

i scare i will think nonsense and make me unstable again, i know recently i still in a not really stable condition.. anyway, just forget it.. now i really don't know what to eat, don't feel like wasting money, and don't feel like eat so much.. want to eat mix rice but there are no vegetables there for non vege stall.. T.T lazy to order those need to wait for sometime, because i don't like my self to be looks like a stupid idiot even though i am..

christmas coming and i am doing nothing.. yea, i know i never celebrate christmas before, as well as last year, i wish i can, yet, i cant.. everytime, there sure will be something to disturb and so, i can do nothing for it.. so i guess, this year christmas, i cant celebrate it.. and i have to welcome the christmas in an unhappy condition.. however, i still hope miracle will happen.. miracle, seems to be so impossible to me..

anyway, i do like to wish all of you and hope that all of you can celebrate the Christmas happily, and can get a lot of present^^

MeRrY ChRiStMAs yaaaa...

bla~~~

arghhhh!!!!! what the H!!!!! T.T
what happen to me??? even though is 12.13pm now, i angry more than once.. bla~~~ especially during the english class.. the teacher seems to be so ok in the beginning, but when is the time for us to pass up the summary, she start to shoot at people, and of course, i was the victim too.. this make me wondering what happen to her also.. is it something wrong with her?? bla~~ whatever.. anyway, she treat me unjustly too..!!! T.T so after i proved that i did nth wrong, she said ok ok, luckily she not to be the one still insist that she is not doing any mistake.. bla~~ anyway, i was really angry and was feeling to throw the paper to her but luckily, i manage to control my self.. thank god.. however, i don't know why i seems to be so not in control... my behaviour, feel guilty thinking of that.. XD maybe i really unstable that time, no point... my group will be the last for presentation, i don't know i should be happy or sad with it as i am the one to draw in front.. *speechless* and yea, the presentation will be on next wednesday for my group...

lastly, i just hope that it will be ok after this, i don have much time to do with those unhappiness.. bla~~

have a nice day....

bla~~~~

bla~~~
don't know what to say...
don't know what to do...
don't know what to write...
arghhh.... damn miserable.. whatever.. i became and still the middle person.. lalala~~~ lalala~~~ T.T
i just hope... the only hope for now.. all back to NORMAL... i don't want to see their sad face aaa...
aduiiiiii.. mummy aaa.. help me aaaa.. T.T
saturday will be an exam for me.. english exam, after that, i maybe will go to PC fair.. walalala~~ pc fair, i hope i can go, maybe, take it as one to let me relax... pc fair once in a while, i think its ok with me, isnt it..
aiyoo, headache... back to normal.. back to normal.. bla bla bla~~~
k laaa.. good luck~~~!!!!!!

arrggghhhh, miserable...!!!

aikz.... this is what i can do..
there are so much things happening surrounding me now in a sudden, it makes me don't really know what should i do, makes me don't know how to handle... yea, its all about my friends.. they feel miserable, i will feel guilty for that.. i tried the best to help, just hope that everything will be fine, but i scare i will do something wrong on that and hurt others, or maybe, will make our friendship become unstable.. i don't want this to be happen, i just hope that there wont be any misunderstanding happen... fuhhh.. i don't know what should i do.. i cannot pretend that i don't know, i cant.. i got the resposibility to help in settling.. arghh.. whatever it is... i do hope that i will be the one emo, full with misery, at least, after sometime, i will be fine, i don't like to see others' unhappiness.. la~~ whatever laaa.. after all, i just hope that everything will back to normal... NORMAL.. study is the most important thing to do now even though i am lazy.... anyway, i am lazy but you are not, right.. herm... so, just good luck in everything....

anyway, i din take any meal since i woke up, yet, i scare will gastric, but i dont feel like eat anything, junk food is more suitable for me at this moment, but i lazy to buy down there.. yea, the misery make me full with so much of laziness.. and yea, there are so much things for me to do and i am still here, wondering what to do now...

good luck everyone, please back to normal as soon as possible.. gambatte in handling your problems..

a big change, a new begin..^^

yep yep...^^ i downloaded the lastest msn and ym, the instant messenger, the lastest version. i guess these is the latest version, sorry if it is not the latest..

well, latest version, the big change is on the graphic side. the colour looks to be nicer, the design, herm, even though i am not fully satiesfied with it, but compare to previous version, i think is better.. do u think so??XD

so, my pc got 2 freshie..^^ actually, got 2 more, the widget on the desktop and the wallpaper..

a new begin for my lovely pc=D

so yea, a new begin of my pc and i guess, i think to have a new begin on me.. right??

maybe you guys wondering why i want to have a new begin, sorry for not..

herm, actually, since i was form 4, i changed, to be lazy.. i doesnt mean to be, but dont really know why it could happen on me.. i seldom do the homework given by teacher, i just do what i like and i will do the homework if really needed, or i will copy the answer from my friend. i want to do the homework and i did try to force my self to do so, and force my self to study, however, i can't. even though there was a very big force, final exam, spm coming, i can't do earlier preparation. i have to wait until last minute, burn midnight oil.

finally, the result come out, it just satisfy me if i look on it using the condition that i do less than 70 or 80 % work.. its worth for me and yea, finally i came to MMU, a uni which people said that 'study there you have to be very very hardwoking', and yet, I am not. i never do the homework, tutorial, assignment... not all, but mostly.. the subject which i m the most hardworking in is the computer application. yea, i like this subject the most among the others.. and yea, i realize something, i interested in this subject, why i choose the engineering course?? i chose the wrong subject, i can say, yes.. this is because, i have the willing to finish the computer assignment, homework and etc, whereas the other subject, i do wish it wont be any homework for that.. *sigh* what can i do now..?? force my self to study the other subject?? but when i wanna start study, after not only 1 minute, i changed my decision. oh gosh.. how am i continue for my study.. yea, its correct, study, we need to have our own interest on that only we can be patient and study for it.. if not, it will be very tough for you to study especially when you have to study for 5 years.. its miserable..

so, hopefully, after today, i will be having new begin.. i do hope i will start to study no matter how boring, how tough it is.. but the most important one is, i have to understand what is the subject about..and know how to solve the question... but who will be going to teach me.. nobody.. and i dont have the willing to consult the lecturer.. so the only way now is, concentrate during the class. but how am i going to do this, i always feel sleepy during the class due to the lacking of sleep.. yea, change my sleeping timetable also will be the important one.. now is 3.17 am and i still in front of my pc, blogging.. uhhh.. swt... XD

so, hopefully, i will change by tomorrow.. good luck for me^^..

and yea, good luck for everyone those going to have a new begin.. gambatte!!!

have a nice nice day yea....=D

又一片胡思乱想。。

一时之间，
我又再一次，
情绪低落到极点。。
我自己也不懂，
也许是复杂的思想吧。。
刚刚情绪稳定，
突然间，
感到不是滋味，
就胡思乱想。。
头脑一大糊涂。。
不过我想，
再给我些时间，
应该就可以了。。
呼。。

a-not-very-good-mood-day...

sorry that i am not in a very good mood due to some specific and sensitive reason since that time in the afternoon..
anyway, i am ok with it, i am not the first time for being this, even though a sentence or even a word can make me turn to be having complicated thinking and turn to be moody...
yet, i am quite a stingy people and i admit.
okay, fine... this is the only respon gave by me...
so yea, its nothing to do with it and me now, after some time, i will back to normal, one who not really sure about her own personality..
huh.. what nonsense am i talking about... swt.. ok, i will be fine soon, i guess..

going to get the result...

I had just watched the 2007 national marching band competition held in Bukit Jalil, the Dvd was given by my friend that had recorded it. I tried last time to watch n yet, I cant, maybe because of the sound system of the computer that not having by the dvd player. So now, I tried again because I am having laptop^^

Anyway, my thinking had messed up due to some ReAsOn… I turned up with a depress mood but I can do nothing with it and the only things I can do is write it down in my blog, and sorry about that, is not this blog, it’s the other blog that is my private blog, sorry for that.

Herm, anyway, I watched it for not more than 1 hour I think, because my eyes started to get itchy, so I have to let it rest for awhile. Finally I keep it back so that it wouldn’t interrupt my mood so much.

Today is Monday, and I will go back to my hostel this Saturday, 5 more days left included today. 3 weeks holiday finally is coming to the end and I have to return to my normal status now, a quite busy life. I will not have so much time to think about all the nonsense, maybe, for awhile, and yea, no more time for me to be in depress only if that is about my study or my results, no more personal things will surround me now. I can get away of those unhappiness but I don’t really know why I am not very happy with it. However, I think is fine, everything will back to their track soon.

Oh yea, tomorrow, if not mistaken, tomorrow I will get my result, my first trimester results. I scare to think about it and yet, I didn’t think about it, just let it come to me, no matter how I have to accept it. However, I do hope I will satisfy with my result, and hope that I will not get disappointed with it. Wish me luck^^

Anyway, I see through my time table for my second trimester just now, even though the subject will be lesser, but the break after some class will be very very short, or can be said, no break for us. I don’t think it will bring us benefit, especially for me, the one always feel sleepy during the class due to the lack of sleep even though there was some break for me. I wondering how I cover up with it while I was thinking not to ignore the teaching during the class. Okay, I just hope everything will be ok next. Wish me luck, again…^^
By the way, I haven’t gather with my friends yet, hope they will be free before I go back to hostel so that my hope will be fulfilled…

Good luck for those going to get their results soon…

道歉？！？

一个人无论有没有做错，
如果令人家不高兴，
就应该道歉。。
这样，
会让自己，
别人都好过些。。
不要做错了，
当作不是一回事，
还骂人。。
也许，我也有错吧，
不过，拜托，
想一下自己有对不起人家吗，
不要无缘无故又来骂人。。
人家一对你不好就乱乱骂人。。
最不喜欢人这样。。
呼。。
随便你怎么想，
也许我是小气的，
不过，凡事都要替人着想。。
发觉不对劲就想一下自己有错吗。。
不要随便破口乱吗，
损坏形象。。
唉。。
算了。。
胡言乱语一场。。
事情过了就算了。。
计较太多不好的也是自己。。
呵呵。。
如我做错了什么对不起大家的事，
我在此向大家说声抱歉。。

what-so-ever...

i m hopeless nowww...

arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dying....
my pre calculus..
no hope alrd..
phy..
i dono think so i got even a little bit hope.. T.T
how???
my exam!!!!!
result will be very bad..
arghhhh
how??????
huh..
hopeless..
next time...
next time cnt study last min..
plz..
no more last min..
n need more practical..
even i knew tat...
aikz....
but the time table oso got its fault..
suppose to exam in the morning..
wake up in the morning go to exam..
the best way..
aikz..
today, exam in the afternoon..
make me tot got time to study..
k book until so late..
walk to exam hall still study..
aikz..
after tat.
i headache.....T.T
no time to let my brain relax..
thn straight away go to exam..
my brain BLANK!!!!!!
at tat moment.. i noe smt bad will happen..
argh..
after i saw the ques paper..
speechless..
i jz do wat i can...
u noe wat,
wat i hav studied..
all forgotten..
forgotten!!!!!
o m g.....
wat happen to me...
tat time..
no time for me to cry or complain..
miserable..
argh...
anyway,
now i can show tat i m not clever....
n not lucky anymore..
happy???
yea..
i m not..
i m not..
uhhhh...
phy paper coming...
this sat....
good..
i dono wat to do..
without practice...
o m g!!!!
how laaa..
aikz...
sorry papa mama,
my result getting worse n worse..
i m now hopeless...
but i cnt even complain to anyone..
nvm laaaa...

wat to do??????????? argh!!!!

i blog again??
hahaz..
yeayea..
i blog again..

aih..
scary scary..
i dono wat to do!!!!!!
argh!!!!

last week..
i heard my fren masuk hosp..
until now, still at hospital..
i heard one more fren,
oso masuk hosp..
but for 3 days...
now,
my bro,
masuk hosp too..
o m g..
wat happen??
y surrounding me all masuk hosp??
the next one will be me???
i cant say no..
it might be yes..
or not..

my fren now still in hosp...
she cnt even study..
the final exam is coming soon...
8th sept..
she maybe wil escape some subject...
aikz..
sad for her..

my bro masuk hosp..
he fal down from the swing..
hand patah...
can it be??
o m g..
can..
it can be..
aikz..
now make my parents all bz this bz tat..
my mama somemore hav to go to hosp to teman my bro overnight..
o m g..
i dono wat to do..
argh!!!
help me!!!
but no one will help me la..
i hav to help myself..
wat to do??
somemore tomolo i will go back hostel,
cz exam is coming soon..
i cnt study at home..
so i hav to go hostel to study..
i cnt help..
i somemore hav to ask my papa to bring me back to hostel..
aikz..
maybe,
this is wat call, a test from the god..

from tat..
i again, realise tat,
we hav to appreciate people all surround us..
especially the one always take care of us..
near to us..
good to us..
teach us..
don regret when thy r not wit u....
oh god..
wat happen to me a???
become so emotional..
lolz..
but its true wat, appreciate....
kakaz..
anyway,
thk god cz i m still here n live for more thn 18 years..

well..
hope all take good care..
n hope my bro n my fren discharge from hosp as soon as possible..
i don wan to be so worry....
n i don wan my parents to worry, too..
see people worry..
will be miserable..
right??
aikz..
again..
wat to do??
argh!!...

if u don wan me to emo,

don neglect me.