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Showing posts with label sorry. Show all posts
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Saturday, November 29, 2008

a big change, a new begin..^^



yep yep...^^ i downloaded the lastest msn and ym, the instant messenger, the lastest version. i guess these is the latest version, sorry if it is not the latest..
well, latest version, the big change is on the graphic side. the colour looks to be nicer, the design, herm, even though i am not fully satiesfied with it, but compare to previous version, i think is better.. do u think so??XD
so, my pc got 2 freshie..^^ actually, got 2 more, the widget on the desktop and the wallpaper..
a new begin for my lovely pc=D
so yea, a new begin of my pc and i guess, i think to have a new begin on me.. right??
maybe you guys wondering why i want to have a new begin, sorry for not..
herm, actually, since i was form 4, i changed, to be lazy.. i doesnt mean to be, but dont really know why it could happen on me.. i seldom do the homework given by teacher, i just do what i like and i will do the homework if really needed, or i will copy the answer from my friend. i want to do the homework and i did try to force my self to do so, and force my self to study, however, i can't. even though there was a very big force, final exam, spm coming, i can't do earlier preparation. i have to wait until last minute, burn midnight oil.
finally, the result come out, it just satisfy me if i look on it using the condition that i do less than 70 or 80 % work.. its worth for me and yea, finally i came to MMU, a uni which people said that 'study there you have to be very very hardwoking', and yet, I am not. i never do the homework, tutorial, assignment... not all, but mostly.. the subject which i m the most hardworking in is the computer application. yea, i like this subject the most among the others.. and yea, i realize something, i interested in this subject, why i choose the engineering course?? i chose the wrong subject, i can say, yes.. this is because, i have the willing to finish the computer assignment, homework and etc, whereas the other subject, i do wish it wont be any homework for that.. *sigh* what can i do now..?? force my self to study the other subject?? but when i wanna start study, after not only 1 minute, i changed my decision. oh gosh.. how am i continue for my study.. yea, its correct, study, we need to have our own interest on that only we can be patient and study for it.. if not, it will be very tough for you to study especially when you have to study for 5 years.. its miserable..
so, hopefully, after today, i will be having new begin.. i do hope i will start to study no matter how boring, how tough it is.. but the most important one is, i have to understand what is the subject about..and know how to solve the question... but who will be going to teach me.. nobody.. and i dont have the willing to consult the lecturer.. so the only way now is, concentrate during the class. but how am i going to do this, i always feel sleepy during the class due to the lacking of sleep.. yea, change my sleeping timetable also will be the important one.. now is 3.17 am and i still in front of my pc, blogging.. uhhh.. swt... XD
so, hopefully, i will change by tomorrow.. good luck for me^^..
and yea, good luck for everyone those going to have a new begin.. gambatte!!!
have a nice nice day yea....=D

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

regretful..

er herm..
this few days, not really sure..XD
i seldom blog this few days, no other reason, it's just because i am lazy.. anyway, there are still some reason like, tired, no mood or etc..
feel so tired now even though i had only two class today, for only 3 hours, but i feel damn tired, maybe because yesterday i sleep at 4am++.. damn tired.. you know what, when i took a 1-hour-nap just now, i seems to be sleep for such a long long time, and the most crazy one is, i still can think whether is it there will be no class after this, even though i am dreaming.. i really feel swt for thatXD anyway, its really a class after that, and i was woke up after my alarm rang, i shock..XD luckily i did set alarm, if not, i cant imagine what will happen next..

anyway, after this second trimester has started, i feel like everthing going to be so rush, assignment and tutorial have to pass up so early, and midterm test will be next week, oh my god, i cant even catch up.. i feel dont like studying and thought to change my course. yea, its true, ones study should be base on their interest, no interest, there will be not enough force for me to study. as an example, i like computer application during the first trimester and yet, i get a great result compare to other subject. i have the force to let me study and i quite relax when i was studying.

however, if can, i will finish this foundation, only i choose the degree course. hopefully i can pass in all subject and have the ability to continue study..
i feel so sorry for my parents..
i hope you all can understand for that...

huh..
exhausting... feel like sleeping...
good luck everyone!!

Monday, September 22, 2008

depress..

o m g!!!!
i get my phy mark jz now..
it sucks!!!!!!
argh!!!!
but it is wat i suppose to get..
maybe it can be lower marks thn this..
i noe wat i hav done in preparing for the phy test..
i noe wat i hav done during the classes..
so,
i noe wat i wil get for the results..
this time..
the god wanna tell me tat,
u, plz start study now...
not more luckiness left..
if u cotinue to be like this, u will become useless..
n u will disappoint ur parents..
i helped u a lot..
i hope u can start to do for ur own now..

haiz..
i knew last time the results,
most of thm bcz of the luckiness..
its the truth..
jz..
it sometime unbelievable..
so my fren tot i m smarter..
haha..
maybe a bit..
but most of it is bcz of the luckiness..
bcz of the help from the god...
u can see tat,
when i was sicked,
i jz study for a bit..
but i stil can get an ok-marks..
this is all the help of the god..
thk a lot!
i noe tat now, is the time for me to do for my own..
uhh..
but how??
i dno...
i tried to force my self..
but finally,
they wil be a lot of things suddenly stop me from doing tat..
so plz..
don stop me again..
n plz..
give me more power to control my self to do wat i suppose to do..
i don wan to bcome lazy anymore...
n plz..
sleep early...
first,
for my health..
n,
for me to hav the intelligent to pay attention during the class..
so tat i can understand wat the lecturer talked bout..
n finally, to let my parents not to worry bout me...
ya, thy always ask me to go to sleep early,
but finally,
i din do so..
sorry...
i do not mean to do tat....
sorry...

huh..
gloomy...
i wont say it out..
but sometimes,
u will noe it through my sight..
hahaha.....
wat can i do???