the end of drama.. good job for all..

yea.. the drama went to the end and here, i wanna say thank you to all the member who done well in the drama.. good job! and, i would like to say sorry, sorry for my lousiness in the technical in the slideshow... hope it wont affect the mark giving for the drama.. and yea, good luck in the exam tomorrow..

btw, i would like to say sorry too to my fren for this few days my emo face.. i doesnt mean to do so, but i cnt control it.. it bring me down.. lolz.. anyway, i hope all of you will forgive me.. lol.. and i will try my best to control my self.. wahaha..

have a nice day..

phy midterm again... tat's "GrEaT"!!!! -.-

herm..
i just finish my 'favourite' physics midterm test.. yea, i guess u know how is it..XD kidding, how will you know that if i didnt tell that.. er herm.. i am so miserable now, but this is what i suppose to get..
i took 2 and the half hours to study for 2 chapters for physics.. wahahahahahahaha... what do you think?? ok?? no!! absolutely not!!! arhhh..... so miserable.. arhh, dont know what to say now, i shouldnt do last minute work but everytime, i do the same things.. i did try to drill it, but it still the same, useless.. whatever laa.. its all my fault and yea, i didnt blame anyone okay..
my fault.. lalala~ feel like jz chop off my self.. huh.. but i wontXD

又一片胡思乱想。。

一时之间，
我又再一次，
情绪低落到极点。。
我自己也不懂，
也许是复杂的思想吧。。
刚刚情绪稳定，
突然间，
感到不是滋味，
就胡思乱想。。
头脑一大糊涂。。
不过我想，
再给我些时间，
应该就可以了。。
呼。。

regretful..

er herm..
this few days, not really sure..XD
i seldom blog this few days, no other reason, it's just because i am lazy.. anyway, there are still some reason like, tired, no mood or etc..
feel so tired now even though i had only two class today, for only 3 hours, but i feel damn tired, maybe because yesterday i sleep at 4am++.. damn tired.. you know what, when i took a 1-hour-nap just now, i seems to be sleep for such a long long time, and the most crazy one is, i still can think whether is it there will be no class after this, even though i am dreaming.. i really feel swt for thatXD anyway, its really a class after that, and i was woke up after my alarm rang, i shock..XD luckily i did set alarm, if not, i cant imagine what will happen next..

anyway, after this second trimester has started, i feel like everthing going to be so rush, assignment and tutorial have to pass up so early, and midterm test will be next week, oh my god, i cant even catch up.. i feel dont like studying and thought to change my course. yea, its true, ones study should be base on their interest, no interest, there will be not enough force for me to study. as an example, i like computer application during the first trimester and yet, i get a great result compare to other subject. i have the force to let me study and i quite relax when i was studying.

however, if can, i will finish this foundation, only i choose the degree course. hopefully i can pass in all subject and have the ability to continue study..
i feel so sorry for my parents..
i hope you all can understand for that...

huh..
exhausting... feel like sleeping...
good luck everyone!!

shame..

Oh my god!!!!!!
What’s wrong with me today?? My thinking in a sudden become so complicated, n started to emo, a little bit… then I was getting better. Swt
So after that, go to calculus class, I was called to go out to do one of the question. I was shocked when I was called because from what I experienced, it wont be so ‘lucky’ that my number will be called…
Okay, that time, the lecturer was quite confused with the formula, and finally, it’s settled and I wanting to find the answer and my name was called, good!!!-.-‘’
I was panicked and yet I haven solved the question due to the changes of formula. And I am a person who very care about my self-esteem, so I scare anything happen to affect it, especially in front if so many people!!!! So I wanted to be faster, and when I was solving the question, my hand shivering, again. Finally, Jac borrow me the answer after made sure with others. Hereby to say thank you… however, I was so panic and I don’t know what’s going on and I just write the answer on the whiteboard, but I didn’t write the solution!!!! God!! So finally, my name is called again and everything got better now, but I am not relieved, but was shamed of my self for being fool in front so many people… getting crazy… anyway, I realized that during adolescent time, we will be having the thinking of imaginary audience, but I still care about that so much… its me I can do nothing with it… hopefully all those was there forget everything about it… arhh…
Tired and sleepy now, I slept after 3am yesterday and it’s for sure…

going to get the result...

I had just watched the 2007 national marching band competition held in Bukit Jalil, the Dvd was given by my friend that had recorded it. I tried last time to watch n yet, I cant, maybe because of the sound system of the computer that not having by the dvd player. So now, I tried again because I am having laptop^^

Anyway, my thinking had messed up due to some ReAsOn… I turned up with a depress mood but I can do nothing with it and the only things I can do is write it down in my blog, and sorry about that, is not this blog, it’s the other blog that is my private blog, sorry for that.

Herm, anyway, I watched it for not more than 1 hour I think, because my eyes started to get itchy, so I have to let it rest for awhile. Finally I keep it back so that it wouldn’t interrupt my mood so much.

Today is Monday, and I will go back to my hostel this Saturday, 5 more days left included today. 3 weeks holiday finally is coming to the end and I have to return to my normal status now, a quite busy life. I will not have so much time to think about all the nonsense, maybe, for awhile, and yea, no more time for me to be in depress only if that is about my study or my results, no more personal things will surround me now. I can get away of those unhappiness but I don’t really know why I am not very happy with it. However, I think is fine, everything will back to their track soon.

Oh yea, tomorrow, if not mistaken, tomorrow I will get my result, my first trimester results. I scare to think about it and yet, I didn’t think about it, just let it come to me, no matter how I have to accept it. However, I do hope I will satisfy with my result, and hope that I will not get disappointed with it. Wish me luck^^

Anyway, I see through my time table for my second trimester just now, even though the subject will be lesser, but the break after some class will be very very short, or can be said, no break for us. I don’t think it will bring us benefit, especially for me, the one always feel sleepy during the class due to the lack of sleep even though there was some break for me. I wondering how I cover up with it while I was thinking not to ignore the teaching during the class. Okay, I just hope everything will be ok next. Wish me luck, again…^^
By the way, I haven’t gather with my friends yet, hope they will be free before I go back to hostel so that my hope will be fulfilled…

Good luck for those going to get their results soon…

那些迟来的照片，
是他们，
永恒的回忆。。
却也是我
永恒的遗憾。。。

my 141th post.. with nothing special.. haha

my 141th post...
*thinking n confirming*
yea, its 141th.XD
nothing speacial about it, its just suddenly come out from my mind, i guess is due to my boringness now. i guess ;D scolded by my mama just now because i disrupted my siblings while they are studying. yea, i m disrupting-.-'' swt. whatever. *wink*
anyway, i learned to drive this afternoon teached by my dad even though i passed my driving test and got my lisence long long time ago even it still 'P' =P
anyway, i didnt give any extra money to pass the test okeyyyy, the reason is i still lacking of skill when driving along the hill if i stopped on it. the clutch and the petrol, headache..XD
so the only way is keep on practicing so that i wont face this kind of problem next time when i drive alone, i can imagine the scene.. scary...
by the way, i learned to drive yesterday too, i think is yesterday, or maybe on monday. oh my god, that time when i was driving, the car keep on 'mati engine', that time, i was sweating. T.T
and one more thing, my dad, uhh, his respon make me feel scare n did badly in driving the car.
finally i decided to practice not under his sight, i drove to one place that he cant see me and i tried there and yea, i did it better. *relieve*
one more thing, this frighten me!! u know what, when i was practicing, there was drain. when i practicing, the car reversed because i didnt use the handbrake to control, unfortunately, i reversed n it reached the drain and i was shocked!! i was worrying if the tyre go into the drain, how am i going to drive it out while i was still practicing and having no experience. uhh, scary. so after i tried to relax myself, i had tried to do my best and ya, i drove the car away!!! *relieve* thk god for helping me.
eventually, i went back home after that and went to my room immediately and i realised that my leg was shivering. i think i was frighten and i cried.XD but then it was just for not more than 1 minute and i end up starring on the wall.
oh, now i know the reason why i was so gloomy yesterday. its because of this-.-'' hahaha.. swt
and yea, it happened yesterday..
today, everything went better, and i think i have learned the technique. thk god..
hope everything will be fine^^

suddenly i have so much things to tell, but i dont know who can i tell.
feel so depress and down. i got so much things to tell, but now i dont know what to tell.
wish to go out but i dont know where to go, wish to chat but dont have the willing to, so, what should i do now? at this moment, i feel that my life is so meaningless. i dont know how to blog in english now after i saw others' english standard. argh!!!!!! i dont know what should i do.

一时之间的胡思乱想。。。。。。

一时之间，
我的情绪，
堕落到极点。。
就那么无端端。。
头脑想的，
不懂为什么。。
突然间感觉到，
发呆，
原来是那么好的。。
一个人，
静静的，
望着夜空，
就算望着一颗植物都好。。
就这样，凝视着它们。。
头脑什么都不想，
空空的。。
暂时性的把所有烦恼，
抛开。。
心情舒畅极了。。
不过，
发呆，
就只有短短几秒钟，
脑筋一开始动，
什么东西都涌上来了，
尤其是那些伤心的，
乱想的。。
一时之间，
发觉到自己，
根本没人理，
有很多事情，
开心的、
伤心的、
感觉上，
都不能与他们分享。。
当事情一过，
什么，都不见了。。
一了了之。。
虽然我知道，
还是有其他人，
只不过，
我的心，
有时却没有哪么的愿意。。
呵呵。。
算了吧。。
生活，
还是得过下去。。
一时之间的低落大不了。。
世间上还有许许多多更可怜的。。
而且，
为自己感到悲伤，
得不到什么，
又何苦呢？？

期待

每一天的生活中，

都充满了很多的期待。。。

期待幸运之神的降临，

为生活，增添色彩。。。

然而，

得到的，

不是希望，

更不是惊喜。。

得到的，

都只会是更多的，

期待。。。

捉迷藏，
有时候，

根本不好玩。。。

wat to do??????????? argh!!!!

i blog again??
hahaz..
yeayea..
i blog again..

aih..
scary scary..
i dono wat to do!!!!!!
argh!!!!

last week..
i heard my fren masuk hosp..
until now, still at hospital..
i heard one more fren,
oso masuk hosp..
but for 3 days...
now,
my bro,
masuk hosp too..
o m g..
wat happen??
y surrounding me all masuk hosp??
the next one will be me???
i cant say no..
it might be yes..
or not..

my fren now still in hosp...
she cnt even study..
the final exam is coming soon...
8th sept..
she maybe wil escape some subject...
aikz..
sad for her..

my bro masuk hosp..
he fal down from the swing..
hand patah...
can it be??
o m g..
can..
it can be..
aikz..
now make my parents all bz this bz tat..
my mama somemore hav to go to hosp to teman my bro overnight..
o m g..
i dono wat to do..
argh!!!
help me!!!
but no one will help me la..
i hav to help myself..
wat to do??
somemore tomolo i will go back hostel,
cz exam is coming soon..
i cnt study at home..
so i hav to go hostel to study..
i cnt help..
i somemore hav to ask my papa to bring me back to hostel..
aikz..
maybe,
this is wat call, a test from the god..

from tat..
i again, realise tat,
we hav to appreciate people all surround us..
especially the one always take care of us..
near to us..
good to us..
teach us..
don regret when thy r not wit u....
oh god..
wat happen to me a???
become so emotional..
lolz..
but its true wat, appreciate....
kakaz..
anyway,
thk god cz i m still here n live for more thn 18 years..

well..
hope all take good care..
n hope my bro n my fren discharge from hosp as soon as possible..
i don wan to be so worry....
n i don wan my parents to worry, too..
see people worry..
will be miserable..
right??
aikz..
again..
wat to do??
argh!!...

depress..

o m g!!!!
i get my phy mark jz now..
it sucks!!!!!!
argh!!!!
but it is wat i suppose to get..
maybe it can be lower marks thn this..
i noe wat i hav done in preparing for the phy test..
i noe wat i hav done during the classes..
so,
i noe wat i wil get for the results..
this time..
the god wanna tell me tat,
u, plz start study now...
not more luckiness left..
if u cotinue to be like this, u will become useless..
n u will disappoint ur parents..
i helped u a lot..
i hope u can start to do for ur own now..

haiz..
i knew last time the results,
most of thm bcz of the luckiness..
its the truth..
jz..
it sometime unbelievable..
so my fren tot i m smarter..
haha..
maybe a bit..
but most of it is bcz of the luckiness..
bcz of the help from the god...
u can see tat,
when i was sicked,
i jz study for a bit..
but i stil can get an ok-marks..
this is all the help of the god..
thk a lot!
i noe tat now, is the time for me to do for my own..
uhh..
but how??
i dno...
i tried to force my self..
but finally,
they wil be a lot of things suddenly stop me from doing tat..
so plz..
don stop me again..
n plz..
give me more power to control my self to do wat i suppose to do..
i don wan to bcome lazy anymore...
n plz..
sleep early...
first,
for my health..
n,
for me to hav the intelligent to pay attention during the class..
so tat i can understand wat the lecturer talked bout..
n finally, to let my parents not to worry bout me...
ya, thy always ask me to go to sleep early,
but finally,
i din do so..
sorry...
i do not mean to do tat....
sorry...

huh..
gloomy...
i wont say it out..
but sometimes,
u will noe it through my sight..
hahaha.....
wat can i do???